"The transition and its effects cost me a lot of suffering": the story of a young man who was convinced to get a sex change

Lukasz Sakowski is a young Polish man who told how he was manipulated and convinced to change his sex. In a letter, which he published in the Daily Mail, he explained that when he was just a boy he met a 40-year-old transgender person on the internet who gradually convinced him that he should begin to wear girls' clothing. Along with this, he provided him with puberty blockers to start a transition.

Sakowski explained that he was not comfortable with the idea of being homosexual in his childhood. He recalls how at the age of 13 he watched a Polish TV show called "Rozmowy w Toku," directed by Ewa Drzyzga, which featured transgender people, and it was the first time he thought that maybe he was not homosexual but a trans person. "It was then that the thought first occurred to me that this was a topic I should be interested in. Searching for information on the Internet, I came across a forum for trans people. ... Quite quickly I got in touch with one of its users - a 40-year-old m/f transsexual person (changing from a man to a woman)," Sakowski said.

"The forum and portals for trans people, as well as the message of transgender activists, confirmed me in this alienation and pushed me to the next steps of changing my sex, like cult members push a novice to more and more drastic steps," he added.

After talking and getting to know each other, the young man started getting help to initiate his transition. When he was 14 years old, the topic of puberty blockers came up in their conversations, while led to the 40-year-old offering to send him a drug called Androcur. "This puberty blocker has many side effects, some of which are labeled 'common'. These include (according to the leaflet): 'toxic liver damage, including jaundice, hepatitis, liver failure,' 'depressive moods,' 'gynecomastia,' 'fatigue,' 'hot flashes,' 'benign brain tumors (meningiomas),' 'benign and malignant liver tumors,' 'thromboembolic disorders,' 'osteoporosis,'" Sakowski detailed.

He claimed that after about half a year, when he wrote to his trans friend that he had abdominal pain on the right side below his ribs, the friend said that they had forgotten to mention that Androcur was supposed to be taken with a liver medication daily. "A few years later, around the age of 18, I had a densitometry, which is a measurement of bone density. It showed advanced osteoporosis (Z-score: -2.8). The doctor describing the result said that I had almost ¼ loss of bone mass relative to the normal one for my age," Sakowski commented.

'The narratives of transgender activists are disinformation, manipulation, and lies'

Despite all this, Sakowski began visiting various psychology and sexology clinics. He underwent genetic testing to see if he had sexual development disorders, also known as hermaphroditism or intersex. The experts told him that his problem was that he did not accept that he was homosexual. "The diagnosis was correct, and the whole process carried out by this psychologist was thorough and insightful, but I completely denied it," Sakowski said. He indicated that he thought that when he dressed as a woman and was given an identity card with his new name, he would feel better.

Now, already in a reversion process to return to what he considers her "true sex," he expressed that "thanks to this, I began to notice how much of the dogma present in the narratives of transgender activists are disinformation, manipulation, and lies, for the sake of concealment called 'modern science,' with which in fact they have nothing in common." He further highlighted that much of the critics of trans activists are people from the LGBT community, classical feminists and pundits. "It is not, as activists portray it, that we have poor and oppressed transgender people on the good side of history and transphobic bigots on the other side who got bored of bullying gays and switched to trans people," he insisted.

He added, "The transition and its effects cost me a lot of physical and mental suffering, which are hard to describe in words, because they concern very difficult moments and periods in my life." He also said that he wrote the letter because he is concerned about young people who are confused about their identity and "and are being led by transgender activists and dishonest psychologists and psychiatrists towards medical body modification."

He said that his goal goes beyond just himself: